Wednesday, January 12, 2011

She is 1 year old!


No, yesterday was not her birthday. Don't get me started on why I wrote yesterday's entry. Nanti korang fikir aku gila. Tapi I have my own calculation, and that's why I wrote it. I didn't think it would be confusing some people. Muahaha.

Anyways, it is today! She's 1 year old. There's nothing more I could say other than,


*PDA sket ngan anak*

I wanna jot down a few things that I thought worth telling/writing:
  1. She has 7 teeth. I think the 8th tooth is coming out too. I am not sure. She has been cutting tooth since she was 6 months old. She was up to 4 teeth by the time she was 9 months old. Then it stopped. The latest 3-4 teeth were cutting out around the same time. She was fine except that she had runny stools. Went to a clinic, doc kasi ubat biasa je since she was active. Aku pon tak kasi sangat ubat tu. Orang tua2 kata, some babies akan cirit-birit bila nak tumbuh gigi. She's fine now.
  2. She is not yet walking. She's not even standing without support. She always finds ways to hold on to something using one of her hands. At times, I caught her standing without support but it was only for seconds. Orang tua2 kata lambatnya. I used to care, but now I don't. She'll come around when the time comes.
  3. Now she knows how to demand. :|. Tak bagi jerit. Haiya.
  4. She still has separation anxiety. Oh when will this go away? Seriously. I thought it will be subsided as she's growing. But from the look of it, it's going upstairs. Lagi kuat nangisnya kalau aku gi dapur/bilik/etc. Merayu2. Macam aku nak tinggalkan dia kat Pasar Borong Selayang and tak datang balik gamaknya. Nangis yang aku tak sanggup nak dengar. Kalau nangis mengada tu lain. Ini nangis tersedu-sedan. Lagi nangis kalau aku gi masuk bilik, tapi dia ingat aku gi dapur. Dia jengah dapur, aku takde. Haaaa hamik kau. Bergegar lantai. 
  5. Picky-eater. Eh dah pandai pulak memilih makanan. Haih. Takpela kan? Asal makan.
  6. Still about food. Orang suruh ajar makan kasar sikit as in nasi lembik + sup. Aku try seminggu, seminggu la dia makan 5 suap max at each meal. 5 suap = 5 sudu baby tu. Mana cukup! Wandy kata, bagi je la apa dia nak makan. Dia dah besar sok, dia tahu la nak makan benda keras. So aku kembali kepada bubur. Tapi aku dah tak masak dalam pressure rice cooker tu lagi la. Masak atas dapur. Kalau masak dalam rice cooker tu, biji beras tu akan jadi lagi lembut. Atas dapur kurang lembut sikit kot. Still lembut la tapi. Maybe I should kurangkan air sikit demi sikit. Lama2 jadi la dia nasik lembik? Huhuhu.
  7. Weight? I don't know. 17/11 nanti, we'll bring her to Klinik Kesihatan for MMR jab. Nanti timbang. I don't think she reaches 9kg. Hehe. Masa 11 bulan, 8kg only. The good thing is, bole pakai baju lama sikit sebab tak beso2 :P.
  8. She still needs breasts to fall asleep especially at home. Tak kira la siang atau malam. If we're outside, that's a different story. Kadang2 bole tidur dalam stroller, kadang2 nak dalam Ergo, kadang2 nak didukung old-style.
  9. She still wakes up at night for susu. Kalau sedar kejap2, sikit2 tu, she can put herself down back to sleep. If she sleeps through the night, that will be my luckiest night.
Ok dah la tu.

As for me, a year being a mother? I know I haven't been the best mother that she deserves. I am telling you the truth. I don't sugarcoat my life. There were times when I felt so rimas when she was being too clingy. Sikit2 nak aku sikit2 nak aku. Rimas. There were times when I thought, bagi FM kan senang, takyah la dia nak menyusu sebelum tidur ni. There were times when I yelled at her because I couldn't take her crying anymore. Too many there-were-times to be written here. All of those that I regret. Aih, I couldn't turn back time. I should have been more motherly. Menyesal pon tak guna. Sudah lah.

Apa2 pon good times pun banyakkkkk. Itu la rencah kehidupan. Uiceyy. Rencah beb. Good times lagi banyak sebenarnya. But as humans, we tend to look at the negatives. NOT COOL.

I am hopeful that this 2nd year will be better. 


Sudah. Bye!
P.S. And today we received the good news that we were waiting for. :)

ಌ Lin Ghazale

3 comments:

Asma said...

hepi besday fifi..moga terus jadi anak yg baik dan menggembirakan hati mommy n daddy...muahkss =)

Wafaa said...

happy birthday Fifi. umur setahun tapi baru 2 kali jumpa. tapi 2 kali jumpa aku belum try dukung lagi.

ehhh point #9 is also applied to my anak bujang.

tasha said...

Happy belated birthday fifi! semoga membesar menjadi anak solehah, dimurahkan rezeki, excellent health dan betambah2 kiut miut.

my baby pun still nak kena nurse to sleep, but the best thing is, sejak 3 bulan lepas, dia dah tak bangun nyusu. yeayyy mak suka! alhamdulillah :D